I got email from a VERY high up yesterday asking for a complete explanation of my actions/outburst on Friday. She wasn't in yesterday. I got here at 8 AM, an hour early, today to give her the chance to discuss it with me. She hasn't had the time yet. My stomach is churning. I'm shaking. I only started this job at the end of November and probation lasts a full year. I can be dismissed during probation for any reason or no reason at all. I'm terrified. I don't know if I will still be employed by the end of the day. Logically, I'm a good worker and the problem was chemical, so I shouldn't lose my job over it, but I'm still frightened.
As for now, break is over so back to work. I'm not doing ANYTHING even VAGUELY wrong.